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I lost the guy I have always love. He was involved in the pile-up accident at Upper Thomson Road without any warning.

This is too crazy for me to swallow.

As if one blow isnt enough,I got betrayed by such a close and dear friend. It must be karma. Just yesterday, we were happily chatting and u even gave me a massage. When I got home and saw that u posed the private lingerie pic of us online for special services, I know this is the end.

Last time, we fell in love with the same guy. You had An an already but u were devious and greedy. U tried taking Musheng away from me, I tried my hardest to get rid of you. But i did not succeed. How I wish something on tv would turn real for your case.

Im just so disappointed right now. He told me you were as close as a biological sister should be whereas I was his wife. We had plans for the future. Dont think you can dominate him because you guys are studying in the same school.

you were once my sister and my everything. now seeing u smirk with satisfaction upon my loss, I feel like tearing off the hair outta my head.

But I hope you would still attend his funeral for his sake. He cheated on us, but still we shall give him a grand departure for the last time.

5 Aug 2008 @ Mandai Crematorium

10.30am

it’s like 2.30am and im bored and waiting for Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind to load finish. what a mouthful of a title.

so im here to do a survey by yu ling. HAHAHA!

1. How long will you wait for someone you love?

I have no idea. Maybe 15 minutes.

2. What do you want to do now?

complete the movie. and try to comprehend the confusing scenes.

3. What will you be doing at 6pm?

masturbating.

4. Do you hate your friends sometimes?

dislike but not hatred.

5. Where do you wish to die?

amk hub.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

and be like dilah to pick up a 2 dollar note?!

7. What impossible things you wish to do?

be fat/ and learn to snap my fingers.

8. Your most sensitive part?

my neck and soles of my feet. And my lovely cheebye.

9. Are you happy with your life now?

nope. I feel inferior.

10. What if your crush asked you out?

can change to eye candy? I would shriek for 2 hours and caress THE MOST HANDSOME INDIAN IN THE WORLD hairy chest and arms. LOL

11. Describe your other half.

a chinese guy who look like malay. wicked/prideful/cheebye but forgiving/good in bed/ funny.

12. What feelings do you hate the most?

not getting what i want and being lonely and inferior.

13. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?

there are some worth cherishing.

14. What are you looking forward to in the coming weeks?

celebrate 3 impt bdays. And getting my 2nd pay.

15. The most important thing in your life.

tissue paper.

16. Who do you hope to always be there for you?

typical loh. family friends and bf.

17. Do you find life meaningless?

sometimes. like we were meant to reproduce and just fuck off in the face of the earth.

18. Who do you love the most?

undoubtedly myself

19. What’s the most gross thing you’ve done?

oh u mean llike still usin my new aldo purse after hq ‘kiap’ it in jon/ken and her privates and her armpit? oh yeahhh.

20. What’s your greatest wish?

To be filthy rich and be happy always.

21. The sweetest thing you ever did for someone.

i think is the letter thing to blah blah blah. I put in alot of effort as it was in chinese. And she cried and I hugged her. And till now, im trying to figure out what to say if I see her daughter.

JUST DO THIS WHEN U GUYS ARE BORED.

We are gonna kick your arses. I think he’s a bear and Im a bitch.

Obviously, u can see who’s the better groper? =p

* sorry my moderator corked up. revive ur comments soon, love!

The most valuable advice someone gave me was simply to

Shut Up.

I back spaced 3 paragraphs. I want to laugh and cry now.

As quoted from Ms Chen Huiqun, I DO NOT KNOW WHAT IS THE USE OF BLOGGING WHEN I STILL HAVE TO CONSIDER OTHER’S PEOPLE FEELING!

If i can blog truthfully, I have to say it will be ugly. Because I am not a very positive person and I can be very cheebye. I need not think that how certain  people will be hurt/affected/paranoid. But after saying my piece, there will be spammers. how enlightening.

The day will probably never come if i can blog my innermost thoughts out.

Part 1 of BRING MY DISNEY BACK LEH!

This is my DISNEY MADNESS and I can rant on and on.

I am not mad about mickey mouse.

i love/adore/worship Disney movies. I know some may think is crappy cartoon but it’s more than a cartoon to me, it’s like good old times.

The prime of it all started when I was like 6? Bombard me with disney merchandises and movies, I would be like close to happiness upon a asthma attack. Auntie Maureen brought me to those shows whereby they had Disney Mascots dancing and I remembered Batman & Robin suspended mid air in Raffles City.

Okay, they are not exactly disney materials. But whatever lah.

There is nothing like those addictive sing along music that will just imprint in ur memory forever. Nothing beats the 99% good ending and the sense of contentment to see the characters go through obstacles and be united.

It’s DISNEY MAGIC AT ITS BEST.

Villains shall not be forgotten

Or better still, a compilation!

I really detest those super animated films with too much advanced edition to it. The best wholesome entertainment for meee!

My personal favourite is Pocahontas. I love the movie to bits when I was a kid, i had the collectible/the shirt and the songs were just too engaging. I refused to watch the second movie though, because disney sequels are sadly really sucky.

Not to mention stupid critics givin’ it a thumbs down because the real life Pocahontas was like ten or twelve and she was married to John Rolfe. Blah.. many different versions,skepticism in the making.

Another love is Lion King. It is just a childhood memory to be nostalgic about, but now that I see those movies back. I laugh fewer times but really appreciate the storyline. I think sidekicks like Timon & Pumba are equally important.

Im looking for underrated ones like Sleeping Beauty and The Lady & The Tramp.( The two dogs sharing the meatball spaghetti)

http://www.youtube.com/profile_videos?user=BestofDisney&p=r

Peter Pan/ Snow White/ Jungle Book/ Lion King.

Faster catch them as you know that Youtube can be quite a cheebye to delete those kind people’s contribution. As u can tell from the title, it’s only Part 1. Shall rant another time I feel the magic of Disney’s touch!

It’s kinda silly to smile or laugh at oneself especially when you’re alone. Like today, while walking to school and I suddenly recalled how me, Benjamin, Kenneth and Hq hurdled tgt and create some lame chipmunk dance at Play.

we probably attracted stares but I guess we too high to care at that point of time.That was last year.

And godd, the other night I was plucking my armpit hair. Yes plucking is so much efficient though more tedious to remove those unsightly hairs. And my bull of a brother suddenly dashed in for envelopes. Of course I was like damm paiseh, and he probably thought I was having some ”Happy Private Moments’ ………GOD -.-’

Anyway because of that stupid moment, I bought envelopes. 2 stacks in fact.

I suddenly feel sian for zw as I think my mum kinda treats him not so nicely. Like a jokingly tone but she seems to be finding fault with him. Aiyah, maybe I just being sensitive.

His mum, on the other hand has been really great. She is, like almost everyone, dying to fatten me up with her cooking, those family dinners and even bird nest. There was once, she compliment me on my top, and I went to ruin it all by saying ”Do I look pregnant?” She did not answer me.

Haha, sometimes my mouth is my root of trouble. But it was one of those babydoll puffy tops what.

Im listening to Bjork’s Gloomy Sunday. Her music is really different, she’s hauntingly beautiful but she’s like eccentric.

Raise ur eyebrows on this.

Once upon a time, you were as kind as a hobbit but now u’re as fierce as a dragon!

Mes Amie

I’ve been waiting a year for this very special day. I was so ‘gan chiong’ to meet Lianya that I met her right after school and ‘abandoned’ Mr Wong. LOL.

My initial worries that 1 year of not seeing each other physically would be awkward. Picture me shakin’ my leg to inspire forced conversation. But none of this happen lah, it felt so natural and just right to be with her.

Haha, sounds so mushy. We hugged in J8’s toilet, how gay can u get? She looked slimmer and looked like Ms Twenty. I have to thank zhiwen for walkin to j8 and walkin back to sch in this weather to meet her and gimme face. Thanks ahh, she said he looked fierce and like a dragon!

It’s really great to catch up with her. I feel we have changed she has matured. There is some similar values and some opinions being brought across the table. Im glad that UK made her independent.

We used to run around shopping malls screaming and disrupting people’s lives and being really hysterical bitches. But other than making weird noises and really natural mimicking of guys’ voices, it was pretty normal.

It has been a loong time since I really chatted with a female companion. Gossiped and keep yak yak yak. I drank sprite/milk tea/honey tea LOL. Not at one go but it was just pure richness of ‘Wah lao, u know..?” and ”HAHAA, fuck you”

Thanks for belated birthday gifts! woo, playboy sia!

We went to take neo-prints OMG, I dunno am i suaku or what? But they have this special function of the fan blowing into ur hair to create a ‘flyway model’ effect. And get this, A FUCKIN RISING PLATFORM!

the japs think it is a concert sia! we stumbled quite a bit when the platform moved, so weird lah. We felt like ah lians with a Shakespeare’s book.

And do u know that u can like print pictures with the faux manicure. I mean like imagine u and ur bf on ur nails? Or extremist narcissist YOU on your own nails! I was telling zw and he said something totally turned off.

Imagine Mrs Lee face on ur nails.

Sian, I imagined her raising her armpits. Good Heavenly Earth!

Anyway,had a great time shopping, but we are going to do some real damage soon! Bought slippers and tote bag from Accessorize!They are having 50% sales! I GOT MY STUFF DIRT CHEAP! USUAL IS $66! I want to get those beach hats leh.

pictures in her cam. cant wait for another date. WEE~

ok, i gonna slp. F1 interview later, so cool lah!

Aaaaargh

It’s kinda silly to blog this out when I know he wont be reading this. Im jealous that eversince he got attached he hasnt got time for me. Be it be just a simple dinner shoppin in town or even prank calls ending off with sinister laughter.

I read what he wrote to me the other day and cried. True to the fact, we were once there for each other. It need not have to be said HEY LOVE U but it was everything to me. Sian, we lose some friends along the way when one is attached.

and yes, im aware it applies to me as well.

just pictures.

Tue last minute dinner with Peishan, Hq and wen. Pics Credits to Ps.

she kept harassing me and I was very stressed.

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Haha, similar pose.

ah lians blasting music. The likes of Katy Perry.

My birthday in May. Supremely late update.

geez, i look frigging bony that time. July is a crazy month for birthdays.

Has Been.

Took LOTR book down for Zw and chanced upon old photo albums so..

I thought it would be fun and AHEM really nicee of me to post my kid photos. Trust me, i changed alot. There are some resemblances. I look nerdy and fair, some I am horribly tanned. Long hair and even botak!

some of it, i highly doubt it’s me but I have come in terms that Im not the prettiest kid in my childhood.

when I had a chihuahua in Pri sch. His name is January.

Ignore my tiko face, i just know he is my dad’s friend.

I look like a boy! My mum hated me to the extent of dressin me up in that top and A FRUIT DRESS! WTH!

CHEENA KIA.

CNY, parents make us dress like china dolls.

Haha, fuckface. ZW was laughing like hell at this. He say I look like the nerdy kid he bullied. Adore e sailormoon curtains anyway!

Almost all girls had this typical hair.

I was shaved botak because I kept chewing my hair.

If u guys happen to come my house, u can laugh at the pictures while I hide behind the pillow. woo` i know u guys are not exactly obliged to show me ur scary kid pics, but please get over the trauma and let’s laugh with each other!

Showed him the autograph book too. Haha, the poems are incredibly corny but funny la.

Pass the ocean, Pass the sea

Pass your exams let me see!

Silly apple Silly Tree Silly Debra

Kiss the tree

Then u have to categorized ur best friends/good ones and even ur enemies or admirers. Plus my fave part is the color pens. I love dem all, zw was like askin hey u like so many color meh? No, i just wanna show off my colors pens!

I still have my sticker book, those furry and ‘3d’ stickers are the most precious and treasured. Some are cheapo stickers, like those stars and weird animals. Strangely, I have smurfs and huazhugege. and even Kenneth koh traded stickers with me.That was 7 years back. You are one frigging fat boy! so old school brings back nostalgic memories.

how bout u guys?

Oooze

Today was a short day for me.

Woke up at 5pm and met Yuwen & Johnne for dinner. Wen was telling me about her brother’s baby green shit. Afterwhich she flashed the revolting picture to my face! WTH.

Chatted abit at the playground and they went home. I met Jerome and we had a sudden impulse (Okay lah, me!) for TCC. so he drove us to T3, where I indulged in my chocolate devotion.

The warm chocolate oozing out is soo soo heavenly plus the airport was cold so I was so into my food that I didnt realise Jerome was blabbering away. Was back home pretty fast, we were both tired. Have to wake up at 8am tml for our various ‘missions’.

and i cant wait for next wk, not school lah but goin’ out with Ms Wong LianYa. =) Lovely.

Of Passion & Nothing Less of You

Frolicking in the bathtub and havin’ a good long talk for the future.

 harp a lil on the past’ events and laugh at all of our bloopers.

We made up; we screwed up and mostly of the times, u got hung up. We should have more sessions this time. I love 202 & 505. even if we become history, i will still remember the good times.

We invested alot this time round, we are winners. Undoubtly.

 

 

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I am having mixed feelings now. My last day of work is later. I only knew it at 10.30pm. I should be cheering Woowee, but it’s just so sudden. Work is sure realistic, when they dont need you they kindly ‘let me go”.

Okay debra, since you are schooling and cant work everyday ,we shall let u go at the end of the month. I was like okay, and went to check my schedule and realized tml was that day.

30th june was Lianya’s day. Though it’s understandable that she would be tired from jet lag, and she has to spend time with her family/relatives/resting before attending to me first. But hey, waited a year for hpy what’s waitin’ a couple of days more. Let’s see how much we have changed.

I deserve a break before schools starts next wk and much weight gaining to be done.

typical

No pics for class chalet. I was there for the bbq night. Pretty miserable atmosphere when I reached there.some were watch PS I LOVE YOU or eating out their hearts.

I blurted out ”hey stop watching PSLE!” I dunno what exactly possessed my mind to say something totally offcourse. They switched to Jap Porn -.-

As I was telling some of them, 1 year ago, we were all shy little fuckers at the First Impression Stage. But now almost everyone was seated to watch porn together.

Had a night walk. At the maze, a bunch of CMB (Cocky Malay Boys) made eerie shrilly female laughter and we actually fell for it. We din see them and 3 mins before that, my big mouth blurted out that I smelled something sweet.

then you know lah, their assumption was

and we all ran away. Haha, a bunch of 19 yr old still so cute sia.

So CMB and us started takin turns to scare each other. They were kinda lame, drapin’  white towel over their heads and flashin torches at their face. Too old school liao lah.

I think our formation is damm cute, wanted to see the sunrise at the tower but there were some weird scents and supposedly illusions to harp that idea away. Too lazy to givee a further itinerary post.

Work was an all time hectic today. I was so busy that I had trembling hands and butt cramp. The pace was VA VA ROOM.Rude customers who pulled my  arm, fuck off to your own country. DONT BLOODY TOUCH ME, so rude lah! I doubt I can endure till July end, I was already throwing shoeboxes hard off the floor to show my displeasure.

I really really admire those doing Guess full time, 1.6k plus commission is nt gd enough for me. Stupid 1 hr irregular breaks. Endure customers’ attitude and weird demands. No life life. Compete for sales.

More people are going off, transferring to other outlets. My face and mood went glum when they told me. july 1st. Damm it, one is my least fave person in work and one is my fave. in work. Siannnn, so sudden. The tailor auntie cooked curry chicken for us today, lol for like 15 ppl?!