today is the day I realised don’t offend a lady.
she is lethal.
u give her a spoonful of hell, and she gives the deadliest of hell.
but afterwhich, like every woman, she is weak and soft and she regrets. But it’s too dead.
I need to be a kid again before i kill myself again.
Creepy old guy kept staring at my sexy sideburns at the train just now. U know it’s really hard to find the perfect haircut, I cut my hair just last week but all the layering has went down so I had this impromptu haircut at Admiralty just now.
and i feel that it’s not about well-reowned salons that always cut the greatest hairstyles. As long u have a clear view on what hairstyle u wanna have and make sure the hair stylist is going to that direction, u are gg to go out of the salon feeling woohoo.
In my opinion, i think an honest hair stylist matters too. Our lifestyles/our laziness to style hair ( Me,Guilty as Charged), Our hair textures, all contribute to what kind of hairdo suits us the most.
If u have a bulldog face and want to look like Victoria Beckham by possessing her hairdo, then really -.-. Or that our hair texture are not as fine as the ones as the hair models in magazine, needless to say much hairspray and styling products are used.
If Im an ah moh, then almost everything will be solved. Sharp features and sharp face.
I know im fuckin’ boring now, i should just post 3 bigass photos of my hair and my lovely bread face, but im too lazy.okay, next off day den update wih pics.
omg, Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance just makes me think she sounds like Madonna, probably would be the reigning electronic pop queen of my era.
i mean 2000 plus era.
i love her bling bling bra set. but don’t really fancy her fake dolly eyes. I so need a rest, being so tired lately, though u see me frequently in fb in work. ahem, but those days will be over.
Will be working at Mandarin Gallery next week.
i realise how much I love myself, maybe in a r/s it’s really all about me.Too in love with me it’s always about me me me.
well, now what?
I know the blog is bloody monotonous with the usual rants of work.
No pictures, no nude videos , no interesting contents.
just some fucked up girl with the emotions that got the better of her. Gradually opening up bits to my colleagues, being transferred to a new environment soon.
love it or hate it, I have to adapt to it, nothing can knock me down that easily. Brooding is endless but being hopeful chases that partially.
really can’t afford to get stressed up and scare myself into a frenzyy or carry heaviness in my heart. ( what an emo sentence, this is)
omg I am so pmsing. I need a sunflower and some chocolates.
and some wanton soup, red stationary, big hug.
i am going to work with a cockroach soon. Imagine u dislikes cockroaches but its gonna boss u around, stay within the same room with you. eeeyer right.
so no life, everyday just rant abt work.
ok fri gonna meet some friends. sat gonna have some fucks. wee
It has been a bed of prickly roses.
I can’t say life is pretty boring nor whoopee exciting, it just possesses a hidden agenda.
Everyday there are things happening to make me feel up or down. And maybe one thing about me in work for 12 hours is that Im not exactly myself.
Im constantly on the alert avoiding people who are a threat to me. Like who potentially would piss me, find fault with me. Partly because Im paranoid, and for the remainder part, it is true. so humji.
It seems weird that every week i am introduced to new people working under the same company but completely different outlets. They gossip and nothing spreads faster than bad news of course. I thought it was a small thing but unfortunately some people do base their impressions on what they hear.
And unfortunately, I am not a person who bothers to please others. I am really in my own world. It doesn’t matter whether people think im superb or what, just as long they dun think im a pushover. Which unfortunately some of them think i am. But once again, it was only my 2nd day that day, so just suck it in.
Quite unhappy with how free people in this company, but of course Im just a tiny weeny junior staff and really this time round, I learned the hard way positions does matter.
one of my colleague was like she drop her position lower because of responsibilities and people disliked her. But she said now im happier, pay may not be so much but at least I HAVE FRIENDS!
LOL.
She’s a very nice colleague, maybe with a scary mindset towards for bor to break rules but fuckin’ straight-forward. Anyway, for now, it’s the end of the month, pay day coming quite soon.
just some tumblr pics that I like.
I like the colors in this. Be it be the cup with hearts prints, the yellow plaid tablecloth and the little rabbit with cherries in the dish bowl. just so whimscal.
I think lighting may it be artificial lights or just sunlight streaming from blinds are really lovely. It just feels like u just woken up and u are not rushing, u are just having a zen moment.
Blank and void of emotions is one of the best yet worse things in life.
First, you are just in a daze, nothing is bothering you. Your mind is just in a vague state meaning it is not clearly expressed nor explained.
However, this is when you are realise u are nowhere. No plans no whatsoever.
And then there’s this pharse call ” Too much scary thinking” . It speaks for itself yeah? u think of ur past/future, your worries; mainly negative things keep filling up your mind. U know things aren’t so bad but u tend to exagerrate and scare yourself.
Before u know it, u are feeling sibei stressed. U have successfully scared yourself and make a strand of hair into Marge Simpson’s hairdo.
Everything that comes your way is negative. All because of your mind, your mind seems processed to function into the negative, sure die mode.
stop scaring yourself, be happy.
IT’S ALL IN THE MIND.
People wear their hearts on their sleeves but I wear my negativity abt myself on my sleeve. mmmm, no wonder I like to wear sleeveless.
I saw him that day.
And it was the rojak of emotions.
Partly uncomfortable with my flickering eyes, happy to see a familiar face and maybe even shame.
This is something I would like to erase so would he. Come to think of it, it wasn’t fair to them at all. I like to categorize myself as a person with extreme ends especially after this eventful year. Can be very quiet very weak and strong. depending on who I am with, the situation and of course my destructive mind.
The most powerful thing about Debra is not her super skinny frame nor her ability to crap and be nice. It’s her mind, so much potential to destroy.
think and think, almost unstoppable. Really leads me to alot of mishaps this year. SO MUCH PRIDE YET SO MUCH HUMJI-NESS.
Im trying so hard not to try so hard.
yesyes.
i spend most of the time at work in a daze. Or maybe trying very hard to find something to do. I still have 9 months to go, I wonder how I can survive 0.0
didn’t sign a contract but if I quit within a year, have to pay like 600 plus for the uniform. To be frank, i don’t really like doing full-time. There’s a lot of responsibilites, u can’t afford to cork up.
the other day, one of my colleagues corked up but it was between the few of us. she literally had to pay for her mistake. luckily, it was not the thousands range but still feel ……
my sissy manager is treating me better, much to my surprise. He was even concerned for my narrow heels would hurt , and told me I could change to pumps after 7pm. I guess it was pms for him tt day we worked or I suspect because he saw how lenient one of the senior colleagues was treating me.
and like every other day, there would be emails and people coming by to implement several new rules and regulations. Of course it’s to improvise and boost sales and blah, but still it’s like …
maybe im still a kid, but I find myself wanting to hit the snooze button when it’s time to wake up for work.
feel like marrying a rich guy so no need study and work so hard =x
i love the easy way out.
anyway, super lame, my working place has 2 new real orchids. My first reaction was it’s so gonna die after a few days, those itchy hands customers and the air at Ion is so dryyyyyyy. so im watering it twice a day or at least sprinkle some water.
been eating very well so far in my life. my appetite has never been so good!
and if u guys are asking me what am I planning to do after this stint, i really don’t know, im not ambitious, I don’t aim to succeed in life nor be a failure.maybe just migrate to some western country whereby they do the cradle and grave system.
maybe grow some weed at my backyard. 12 hrs a day/5 days a week. working boring zzzzzz.
anyway, a supr nice song from Pomplamoose. Yes, i downloaded her stuff. woowee.
-watched Cloudy with a chance of meatballs in 3d.
-shitted twice and ate alot afterwhich ( it’s a big deal to me,okay!) All thanks to honeydew daily!
-am quite surprised that actually routines aren’t so bad afterall. After having regular meals, sleep and so, I feel much better.
- have this really straight forward but easily pekche colleague who went to told the manager off after he demanded his change back from me, WHY U SO BITCHY? LOLOLOLOL.
-super shiok, that sissy fuck. Really, I stay 4 metres from him everytime he asks me to do things, bosses people around. He’s newer than me but throwing his weight around.
but on the 29th, he’ll bein another outlet. I don’t really do the ‘ i dun like u’ thing, but sincerely he’s someone I want to avoid for life.
-have been seeing very beautiful ladies.
- can’t believe im working 60 hrs a week an still surviving.weeee
-but missing the simplest things like lazing at home, meeting friends up and sun tanning. I miss the outdoors, i HATE AIR CON, make my skin dry and lips peel.
the grass is always greener at the other side, but if u leave your spot, can u guarantee the new side would be what u desired?
will the new side be as tolerant of your shortcomings? Once u found someone special, and times goes by, spices become bland, do u dare take the risk?
when people express that they can’t live without love, i go doesn’t everyone start from zero?
Doesn’t everyone start off as alone?
Maybe they’ve eaten that particular piece of pie, reminisce the good times and decide ohh, I want to be in the love game.
u know in horror or thriller, there is this guy/ghost always lurking around, finding oppportunities to scare the fuck out of you or just to kill you.
i realised im experiencing it almost every other day.
to the point that I have to anticipate it somewhat ‘ren ming ly’,( resign to my fate). At times, Im lucky i escaped unharmed, at times I score some points for revenge.
anyway, not to worry. The problem will be done and over soon.
I got my BB cream samples today! I was like out within 5 minutes upon waking up from my nap, open my letterbox because this is my first time having normal mail.
Tried the Etude House today, coverage was low-medium. I dusted some foundation and went out. More towards the natural nude look. Best thing, it’s not as ‘heavy’ as the liquid foundation im using currently.
But the LF has really excellent coverage and one bottle I bought from dec last yr lasted me till now. Like wow, I used it quite regularly. And work requires me to touch up on my makeup from time to time, in case some anal clown wants to find fault with us.
planning to try Hanskin tml. Hope this would be the one for me, so I can purchase a full sized bottle. I forgot what I swatched the other day at Guardian/watsons but omg it was glittery, luckily it was on my hand.
feeling like nt gg to wrk tml, but it’s only sissy and me. sometimes sissy makes me feel less than a woman, the ways he struts.
and i must really not spend any money on clothes and shoes.2/3 of my pay is already bye-bye. it’s only 5 days pay lah.
cant wait for e next. will be having significant changes! woo
MUST LISTEN, I LOVE THIS FOR MONTHS ALREADY!
Juno- Tokyo Police Club
do it ages ago when zw POPed, ( passing out parade). I did it on a vanguard sheet, omg so old school, i remembered in my primary sch we always did our art work on vanguard.
anyway, he din have a official pop, so I was like oh i’ll meet u outside the camp gates and walk home tgt. And he was like ohh, alright, dun do a poster and wave it around.
which was what I was planning to -.-
and the photos are like so small cos I accidently changed some format on my hp cam. so pardon the tiny pics.
at SSC, omg what a waste, such a beautiful tele-tubby like water park but they build it at such a ulu place.
at the feeder bus to Chevon Country Club, omg quarrelled twice that day. =(
LOL, my dress I cupped it over his head. Bananda boy now.
my colleague taking a nap during her break. what a weird sleeping postition.
omg, at a pet shop in sembawang just now. Din manage to take a front shot but super chio the furry persian. And got two omg leopard prints ( nooo zipbra preens ris low pls) cats, but they kinda stink up the whole place with their fresh poo.
last of all, my son which I have been hiding for 2 years from all of you NOT. it’s yuwen’s nephew. I am so mermerized by him, when he smiles. Somemore Im not those kind of girl who will go gush over babies and kids, i am kind of afraid of them. they are so fragile and errr unpredictable. lol
but anyway, omg so lovely.
I am lazy to elaborate abbout wrk, which is kinda of a routine. I work 12 hrs shift so my body is adapted to working up early. I have time to ahem go shopping when there is no one around. so pls forgive me if I do not disclose my wrkin place at fb or whatsoever.
plus there are some kinda ‘politics’ going on at my 2nd workplace. Im always someone contented in my own little world. Im not trying to be judgemental and I hope ppl would not take my silence as a chance to piss on my head.
someone is about to burst out, and i hope she would be fine.
im thinking of giving Naomi back to the SPCA. yes, seriously, everyday getting bitten or scratch by her even when u try to love her. she is really cute but painfully hopeless.
im already half dead to her.
what we wanted was just a pet who loves us and we love her. It’s not very hard right, we don’t expect her to like know 101 tricks and catch cockroaches. i got bitten at my ankles just a few minutes, in fact the whole family has been bitten.
but really heartpain, because she was really something I really really wanted and desired and I have to give her up because she has no room to love anyone but herself =/
such a pretty face but really evil heart =/
