lately, Naomi has been really improving but she still gets on my nerves. Trust me, I seem to be the scene of crime for her berserk time of the night.
looks like i mutilate myself or drew myself by marker. erxin cbk had to claw me (accident) while leaping like one siao char bo on the table to the window.
she has finally allowed us to pat her constantly, though she appears somehow coy & snappish afterwhich. Naomi has also a new habit which is starring at me.
as though she is giving me an appraisal. I supposed she thinks Im emotionally unstable. One minute, I laugh & love her with treats & pats and the next moment, Im brooding over a newfound topic
the beginning of today was sucky. I woke up barely 10 minutes only to be fuck upside down. There were like 4 misunderstandings and I bloody could not be bothered to even explain myself.
WHY?
because she thinks it’s excuses or weak defences. Or im just trying to cover my ass by saying. So I was silent all the way. I know it’s unfair to her that people are judging her as well. But I think momentarily I lost a basic freedom of speech. a freedom of expression.
humji to the core.
then we pretended everything was fine after 15 minutes when she got back. I think I’ve been excelling in that. to reassure myself & everything things are quite well. maybe for that moment.
ok stop whining. many people are going through worse than me, I am feeding on these people miseries to feel better. woo~ Im really psyched for work. maybe some of my colleagues will dislike me cos they are already shorthand & I had to land myself in this shit. or maybe Im thinking too much.
but really I need to invest my time in something else, instead of the hazardous workings of my mind.
im crazy.
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