I think it has been the back of my mind for many weeks already.
This may come as a shock.I am actually quite happy & sad. Part of me feels it’s a pity but I think it is only fair to have someone return back love to u.
I take so much but I have given stringent amounts in return. And it has always been me. I have found someone who is willing to put down his pride and accept my flaws and make me the priority in his life.
but i don’t love him as before. what a fucker I am.
I wonder am I being too used to having all of his attention that I take him for granted. Or I am just obliged to behave according to habit? There are so many ‘I’ in this entry.
there are so many things that doesn’t tally to what I say or do or even what people see.
but arrgh what a pity.
I cancelled my appt at tts, as I realised someone out there needs it more than me. Also, I would definitely NOT open up to a stranger.
I am thankful for now. The night air has never smelled so promising.
