im so attracted and smitten now, but remind me not to pour my heart in.

it’s our sexy baby, Huizhi birthday! Held at Pasir Ris, whereby the sky threatened red but never rain.only slight drizzle, we lay down to watch the drops coming down on us.

i love the feeling.

we made a photoscape photoframe( is that what u call it?) a compilation of our photos throughout years of friendship.

I had such a great time despite being worn out from work.

we played a series of games rnaging from rhythm/pure guesswork and just talking. I love this guys, they are like a part of my skin. dun ever be dead skin cells!

anyway, as usual I suck in itinerary posts, so just look at how gorgeous each and everyone of my sexys are. woohoo!

Top 3 finalists in Singapore Got Model!

Haha, ken jon and py are not some cult grp. They playing who can last the longest by holding up their hands horizontally and squatting. Needless to say,Princess Peipei is the winner.

if u are wondering why the fuck is peiying Princess Peipei, because of the that Lucy Liu character game. somemore both are lius. ok random.

beautiful cake. cityhall-bishan-pasir ris.

burden cake lololol.

=)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))00

something just happened. I discovered that I have no remorse, Im such a potential terrorist.

but putting it aside. let me cast it as an infautation case.

he’s gorgeous and charming. someone i connected and hit it off so well but there’s always this sickening cheebye but.

but needless to say after what we have done, it’s impossible.

lost one and another one.

despite all this, im lucky so lucky. but i await karma. bring it on, baby.

finally someone that can make sense to me. omg im so attracted,im a kid all over again. shrieks.

i would like to diagnose myself with the disorder of ”emotions get the better of me” maybe u may think 3/4 of girls are like crappy emo bitches who can drop a palmful of tears or quoting Tyra Banks ” Creating Tornados in her mind”

it isn’t so bad when u expect it to happen but after what i have been up to, it’s like im trying so hard to make things happen. This comes as a shock to me as I am always the kind who trys so hard not to try hard.

pls re-read and comprehend that sentence carefully.

and the worst thing was I actually thought hey why not get 445678 for it? and aargh my thoughts become my actions.

aargh seriously fuck i thought i will be workin and have no time for crap but I landed myslf into another pool of shit that I planned and have to clear it up.

i hate myself sometimes but i dun really feel remorseful now. aargh fuck.

thank god i don’t look the part, debra restrain and behave ursself.

One big ass picture of Py bday.

I love grp pics, next up would be Hz, just have to wait a couple of months for Yuwen to send us all.

Haven’t really updated in awhile. I’ve done nothing decent and proud to be posted up here. Maybe just self-fulfiling, and only a couple of my sexys know.

have been in Mandarin Gallery doing set-up, dead busy hands never stop working and that my temper has kinda shorten. omg workworkwork. 2 storeys, the stairs are a cheebye terror.

so much things has happened.

closing down my blog. i will be entirely devoted( not that I want to aargh) to work. it will be a brand new experience. pray hard everything goes well.

today is the day I realised don’t offend a lady.

she is lethal.

u give her a spoonful of hell, and she gives the deadliest of hell.

but afterwhich, like every woman, she is weak and soft and she regrets. But it’s too dead.

I need to be a kid again before i kill myself again.

Creepy old guy kept staring at my sexy sideburns at the train just now. U know it’s really hard to find the perfect haircut, I cut my hair just last week but all the layering has went down so I had this impromptu haircut at Admiralty just now.

and i feel that it’s not about well-reowned salons that always cut the greatest hairstyles. As long u have a clear view on what hairstyle u wanna have and make sure the hair stylist is going to that direction, u are gg to go out of the salon feeling woohoo.

In my opinion, i think an honest hair stylist matters too.  Our lifestyles/our laziness to style hair ( Me,Guilty as Charged), Our hair textures, all contribute to what kind of hairdo suits us the most.

If u have a bulldog face and want to look like Victoria Beckham by possessing her hairdo, then really -.-. Or that our hair texture are not as fine as the ones as the hair models in magazine, needless to say much hairspray and styling products are used.

If Im an ah moh, then almost everything will be solved. Sharp features and sharp face.

I know im fuckin’ boring now, i should just post 3 bigass photos of my hair and my lovely bread face, but im too lazy.okay, next off day den update wih pics.

omg, Lady Gaga’s Bad Romance just makes me think she sounds like Madonna, probably would be the reigning electronic pop queen of my era.

i mean 2000 plus era.

i love her bling bling bra set. but don’t really fancy her fake dolly eyes. I so need a rest, being so tired lately, though u see me frequently in fb in work. ahem, but those days will be over.

Will be working at Mandarin Gallery next week.

i realise how much I love myself, maybe in a r/s it’s really all about me.Too in love with me it’s always about me me me.

well, now what?

will update later. about the curse of the triple eyelids.

I know the blog is bloody monotonous with the usual rants of work.

No pictures, no nude videos , no interesting contents.

just some fucked up girl with the emotions that got the better of her. Gradually opening up bits to my colleagues, being transferred to a new environment soon.

love it or hate it, I have to adapt to it, nothing can knock me down that easily. Brooding is endless but being hopeful chases that partially.

really can’t afford to get stressed up and scare myself into a frenzyy or carry heaviness in my heart. ( what an emo sentence, this is)

omg  I am so pmsing. I need a sunflower and some chocolates.

and some wanton soup, red stationary, big hug.

i am going to work with a cockroach soon. Imagine u dislikes cockroaches but its gonna boss u around, stay within the same room with you. eeeyer right.

so no life, everyday just rant abt work.

ok fri gonna meet some friends. sat gonna have some fucks. wee

It has been a bed of prickly roses.

I can’t say life is pretty boring nor whoopee exciting, it just possesses a hidden agenda.

Everyday there are things happening to make me feel up or down. And maybe one thing about me in work for 12 hours is that Im not exactly myself.

Im constantly on the alert avoiding people who are a threat to me. Like who potentially would piss me, find fault with me. Partly because Im paranoid, and for the remainder part, it is true. so humji.

It seems weird that every week i am introduced to new people working under the same company but completely different outlets. They gossip and nothing spreads faster than bad news of course. I thought it was a small thing but unfortunately some people do base their impressions on what they hear.

And unfortunately, I am not a person who bothers to please others. I am really in my own world. It doesn’t matter whether people think im superb or what, just as long they dun think im a pushover. Which unfortunately some of them think i am. But once again, it was only my 2nd day that day, so just suck it in.

Quite unhappy with how free people in this company, but of course Im just a tiny weeny junior staff and really this time round, I learned the hard way positions does matter.

one of my colleague was like she drop her position lower because of responsibilities and people disliked her. But she said now im happier, pay may not be so much but at least I HAVE FRIENDS!

LOL.

She’s a very nice colleague, maybe with a scary mindset towards for bor to break rules but fuckin’ straight-forward. Anyway, for now, it’s the end of the month, pay day coming quite soon.

just some tumblr pics that I like.

I like the colors in this. Be it be the cup with hearts prints, the yellow plaid tablecloth and the little rabbit with cherries in the dish bowl. just so whimscal.

I think lighting may it be artificial lights or just sunlight streaming from blinds are really lovely. It just feels like u just woken up and u are not rushing, u are just having a zen moment.

Blank and void of emotions is one of the best yet worse things in life.

First, you are just in a daze, nothing is bothering you. Your mind is just in a vague state meaning it is not clearly expressed nor explained.

However, this is when you are realise u are nowhere. No plans no whatsoever.

And then there’s this pharse call ” Too much scary thinking” . It speaks for itself yeah? u think of ur past/future, your worries; mainly negative things keep filling up your mind. U know things aren’t so bad but u tend to exagerrate and scare yourself.

Before u know it, u are feeling sibei stressed. U have successfully scared yourself and make a strand of hair into Marge Simpson’s hairdo.

Everything that comes your way is negative. All because of your mind, your mind seems processed to function into the negative, sure die mode.

stop scaring yourself, be happy.

IT’S ALL IN THE MIND.

People wear their hearts on their sleeves but I wear my negativity abt myself on my sleeve. mmmm, no wonder I like to wear sleeveless.

I saw him that day.

And it was the rojak of emotions.

Partly uncomfortable with my flickering eyes, happy to see a familiar face and maybe even shame.

This is something I would like to erase so would he. Come to think of it, it wasn’t fair to them at all. I like to categorize myself as a person with extreme ends especially after this eventful year.  Can be very quiet very weak and strong. depending on who I am with, the situation and of course my destructive mind.

The most powerful thing about Debra is not her super skinny frame nor her ability to crap and be nice. It’s her mind, so much potential to destroy.

think and think, almost unstoppable. Really leads me to alot of mishaps this year. SO MUCH PRIDE YET SO MUCH HUMJI-NESS.

Im trying so hard not to try so hard.

yesyes.

i spend most of the time at work in a daze. Or maybe trying very hard to find something to do. I still have 9 months to go, I wonder how I can survive 0.0

didn’t sign a contract but if I quit within a year, have to pay like 600 plus for the uniform. To be frank, i don’t really like doing full-time. There’s a lot of responsibilites, u can’t afford to cork up.

the other day, one of my colleagues corked up but it was between the few of us. she literally had to pay for her mistake. luckily, it was not the thousands range but still feel ……

my sissy manager is treating me better, much to my surprise. He was even concerned for my narrow heels would hurt , and told me I could change to pumps after 7pm. I guess it was pms for him tt day we worked or I suspect because he saw how lenient one of the senior colleagues was treating me.

and like every other day, there would be emails and people coming by to implement several new rules and regulations. Of course it’s to improvise and boost sales and blah, but still it’s like …

maybe im still a kid, but I find myself wanting to hit the snooze button when it’s time to wake up for work.

feel like marrying a rich guy so no need study and work so hard =x

i love the easy way out.

anyway, super lame, my working place has 2 new real orchids. My first reaction was it’s so gonna die after a few days, those itchy hands customers and the air at Ion is so dryyyyyyy. so im watering it twice a day or at least sprinkle some water.

been eating very well so far in my life. my appetite has never been so good!

and if u guys are asking me what am I planning to do after this stint, i really don’t know, im not ambitious, I don’t aim to succeed in life nor be a failure.maybe just migrate to some western country whereby they do the cradle and grave system.

maybe grow some weed at my backyard. 12 hrs a day/5 days a week. working boring zzzzzz.

anyway, a supr nice song from Pomplamoose. Yes, i downloaded her stuff. woowee.

i am in my own world.

i am glad to be in my own bubble but there are always intruders and aggression.

i must protect my kingdom!

-watched Cloudy with a chance of meatballs in 3d.

-shitted twice and ate alot afterwhich ( it’s a big deal to me,okay!) All thanks to honeydew daily!

-am quite surprised that actually routines aren’t so bad afterall. After having regular meals, sleep and so, I feel much better.

- have this really straight forward but easily pekche colleague who went to told the manager off after he demanded his change back from me, WHY U SO BITCHY? LOLOLOLOL.

-super shiok, that sissy fuck. Really, I stay 4 metres from him everytime he asks me to do things, bosses people around. He’s newer than me but throwing his weight around.

but on the 29th, he’ll bein another outlet. I don’t really do the ‘ i dun like u’ thing, but sincerely he’s someone I want to avoid for life.

-have been seeing very beautiful ladies.

- can’t believe im working 60 hrs a week an still surviving.weeee

-but missing the simplest things like lazing at home, meeting friends up and sun tanning. I miss the outdoors, i HATE AIR CON, make my skin dry and lips peel.

the grass is always greener at the other side, but if u leave your spot, can u guarantee the new side would be what u desired?

will the new side be as tolerant of your shortcomings? Once u found someone special, and times goes by, spices become bland, do u dare take the risk?

when people express that they can’t live without love, i go doesn’t everyone start from zero?

Doesn’t everyone start off as alone?

Maybe they’ve eaten that particular piece of pie, reminisce  the good times and decide ohh, I want to be in the love game.

u know in horror or thriller, there is this guy/ghost always lurking around, finding oppportunities to scare the fuck out of you or just to kill you.

i realised im experiencing it almost every other day.

to the point that I have to anticipate it somewhat  ‘ren ming ly’,( resign to my fate). At times, Im lucky i escaped unharmed, at times I score some points for revenge.

anyway, not to worry. The problem will be done and over soon.

I got my BB cream samples today! I was like out within 5 minutes upon waking up from my nap, open my letterbox because this is my first time having normal mail.

Tried the Etude House today, coverage was low-medium. I dusted some foundation and went out. More towards the natural nude look. Best thing, it’s not as ‘heavy’ as the liquid foundation im using currently.

But the LF has really excellent coverage and one bottle I bought from dec last yr lasted me till now. Like wow, I used it quite regularly. And work requires me to touch up on my makeup from time to time, in case some anal clown wants to find fault with us.

planning to try Hanskin tml. Hope this would be the one for me, so I can purchase a full sized bottle.  I forgot what I swatched the other day at Guardian/watsons but omg it was glittery, luckily it was on my hand.

feeling like nt gg to wrk tml, but it’s only sissy and me. sometimes sissy makes me feel less than a woman, the ways he struts.

and i must really not spend any money on clothes and shoes.2/3 of my pay is already bye-bye. it’s only 5 days pay lah.

cant wait for e next. will be having significant changes! woo

MUST LISTEN, I LOVE THIS FOR MONTHS ALREADY!

Juno- Tokyo Police Club

do it ages ago when zw POPed, ( passing out parade).  I did it on a vanguard sheet, omg so old school, i remembered in my primary sch we always did our art work on vanguard.

anyway, he din have a official pop, so I was like oh i’ll meet u outside the camp gates and walk home tgt. And he was like ohh, alright, dun do a poster and wave it around.

which was what I was planning to -.-

and the photos are like so small cos I accidently changed some format on my hp cam. so pardon the tiny pics.

at SSC, omg what a waste, such a beautiful tele-tubby like water park but they build it at such a ulu place.

at the feeder bus to Chevon Country Club, omg quarrelled twice that day. =(

LOL, my dress I cupped it over his head. Bananda boy now.

my colleague taking a nap during her break. what a weird sleeping postition.

omg, at a pet shop in sembawang just now. Din manage to take a front shot but super chio the furry persian. And got two omg leopard prints ( nooo zipbra preens ris low pls) cats, but they kinda stink up the whole place with their fresh poo.

last of all, my son which I have been hiding for 2 years from all of you NOT. it’s yuwen’s nephew. I am so mermerized by him, when he smiles. Somemore Im not those kind of girl who will go gush over babies and kids, i am kind of afraid of them. they are so fragile and errr unpredictable. lol

but anyway, omg so lovely.

I am lazy to elaborate abbout wrk, which is kinda of a routine. I work 12 hrs shift so my body is adapted to working up early. I have time to ahem go shopping when there is no one around. so pls forgive me if I do not disclose my wrkin place at fb or whatsoever.

plus there are some kinda ‘politics’ going on at my 2nd workplace. Im always someone contented in my own little world. Im not trying to be judgemental and I hope ppl would not take my silence as a chance to piss on my head.

someone is about to burst out, and i hope she would be fine.

im thinking of giving Naomi back to the SPCA.  yes, seriously, everyday getting bitten or scratch by her even when u try to love her. she is really cute but painfully hopeless.

im already half dead to her.

what we wanted was just a pet who loves us and we love her. It’s not very hard right, we don’t expect her to like know 101 tricks and catch cockroaches. i got bitten at my ankles just a few minutes, in fact the whole family has been bitten.

but really heartpain, because she was really something I really really wanted and desired and I have to give her up because she has no room to love anyone but herself =/

such a pretty face but really evil heart =/

A plays the paint application on the com, B plays Solitaire and chats on the phone, C chats on the phone and eats potato chips. D peels the cracked skin on her lips. B helps D to apply eyeshadow.

C refolds and refolds jeans. A sprays the scent can. D paces around, in hope for footsteps. B laughs and grunts.

that is how boring life is.

At first I thought my workplace has a stragetic location, but now I think if i run about the shop naked and go wooweegahhh, nobody will notice.

And the rate I am learning to is quite slow,no wonder they have to take 6 mths to confirm a full timer. whatever, im wrking the full shift now to take the 2 days off.

i wanna pangsai now . bye

oh my god, wordpress load like ……..      ……….  …

work is so different from the previous few, they DON’T want me to learn things fast. If i asked qns to a particular colleague, she say WHY SO KAN CHIONG?

this is supposed to be a more high end place but they are really flexible. It is only my 3rd day. And I see more people get lost in Ion than customers going into the shop.

What is so interesting is that they would look in the shop and up to the brand’s name, mouthing the name and walked off. It made me soooo curious wth is gg on, and I went outside to observe why the fuck they dun wan to come in. it’s not like anyone is stationed right in front with intidimating stares force them what.

weird. there are only a few, and by a few I mean a handful of people to try on. Iwas so desperate I wanted to beg ppl to just come in the store. even try, let me have something to do.

god, pls let weekends be busy.

Courtney,Rae and Nicole.

Hot faves of mine. weee

THEIR HAIR! especially icy platinum blonde and fiery fierce red!! like WOAH.

omg,  I don’t care I want to do a really drastic change to my hair color.After my paycheck comes in but Im unemployed now.

Omg, unemployed. I was ticking that box when filling up some form and it was like menacing me. Dr Jones, pls call me back!

omg, caridee looks so scary and beautiful. tell me who can achieve that huh huh?

credits: http://community.livejournal.com/topmodel_icons/

will be going home later with 3 Happy Meal Toys.

1 Hello Kitty Ring 1 Doraemon Pen 1 Doraemon Sketcher

I am a kid all over again~~~~~~~

so much in my mind,  to unload here?

I wish it can be as light-hearted as those books I love to read.

Nothing mind-provoking, you don’t even have to think alot, you need not decipher any profound sentences, straight to the point and a good laugh.

that’s a ideal life in comparison to a light read. However, easily forgotten.

(12:05:25 SGT) Debra and Big Breakfast: 4 days ago, she keep goin under my bed to play with plastic bags, den actually is NOT! she eating chicken wings uder my bed
(12:05:34 SGT) Debra and Big Breakfast: she hoard it for 4 days!
(12:05:36 SGT) Debra and Big Breakfast: omg right

And I didn’t even dare to look at the chicken wings in the bag! I mean like 4 DAYS! eeeee, surely decompose.

Can’t wait for this year to end, or maybe can’t wait my brain to evolve into another stage. The stage I would like to think of ” The Thinking Stage” because I have been thinking alot of things but not good things that I carry out.

i screwed up quite recently. to screw something so I can screw the another without turning back. But to no avail, in fact it backfired on me so badly that the something that got screwed became a pleasant surprise. ( pardon my screws.)

that something kept coming back to me, always better than the last time. And this on-going incident will remind me that life is not complicated and not hard to comprehend,it is just us who make life motherfuckin’ weird.

And after years of rebelling, years of repeatedly saying aargh fuck the vicious cycle, fuck the routine. I welcome it, i want a routine. I want the boring word of ‘regular’.

I don’t want to be unconventional in these ways.

omg, im mighty broke now. The only good thing that came out is that I have about 7 new articles of clothing. And this time i would visit sgfleamarket as a seller not a buyer =/

haha, distasteful.

okay, I visited a ( what to you call a place u massage?) massage parlour? But I never did it, because I am scared when people touch and attempted to massage my back and my foot.

I would rather eat my pisai than to ever get that kind of thing done.

And kenneth was like relax only, but when he was in another place doing his back massage, there was this man moaning away. really different threshold of pain.

okay, im currently reading these 2 books.

which zw bought for me after we broke up. But it’s kinda deep ancient Japanese history involved inside. So im reading carefully for the first time.

And if im not mistaken, it’s adapted into a movie. But I doubt it follows the book.

it’s like really nice, im almost done with it.

it’s okay if i take an extract of the exercise inside bah.

-Write about a place that was important to you growing up, but don’t put people in it. Just describe it as though you were painting the picture with words.

-Two people are having a conversation. It can be any two people you want, but this is the first line of dialogue: ‘Kiss me.”

there are more topics obviously. I would love to try them when I have the mood to do so. and of course anyone can do them too just credit it to Susan Breen- Fiction Class.

because plagiarism sucks.

it’s 4.26am. Good morning to u guys and Goodnight to me!

mmmmmmmmmmmmm.

Im not going to do a review of the show. Just want to say im lucky to catch several good movies consecutively.

and this movie reminds me of one thing. I think it is quite a common dream for alot of people to go around the world to experience a different culture, a different environment. even for just a while.

And after quite a silly thought, because I ate alone in work and shopped alone while waiting for a friend this year, I thought hey I don’t mind doing it alone. No one to hinder me from planning my itineraries, stop me from buying things. But I forgot I am afraid of loneliness, it eats me up from time to time.

I guess that is why I met up 8 online friends over 6 years. do u know that it is really very easy for me to make friends, even with complete strangers? But, unfortunately yes that but again, I don’t really keep them.

And im feeling quite bitter over what I didn’t do over time.

I guess everyone has their moments of

- not contacting friends because they are paiseh to?

-don’t know what to say or start?

-afraid of rejection?

-think oh they so busy?

-or just admit it, sometimes we just can’t be bothered to..

- and for my case, sometimes it’s quite silly, it’s because I don’t want to let my friends think they are ‘being used’

Like let’s say I want dinner but someone else back out last minute, so I had to call another person. I don’t like it when people call me to ‘make up the numbers’.

after i wrote out this chunk, i really think i think too much lol.

But back to my main topic, I really want to keep this idea and feeling. I want to start a scapebook, u know like in UP? To constantly remind and motivate myself to make money for this escapade.

anyway, I am very lucky for the 8 online meetups, i was not raped or what. But the very first one was like insulting, because it was a hideous beng and I was pretty hideous as well, when I had waist long hair and lovely specs lol. And i remember peishan accompanied me.

and the hideous beng saw me and we were all chatting and he rang up his friend saying I was ugly in some indirect but obviously directing to me. And after some verbal humilation, i remembered peishan telling me to put on makeup and next time show him, i can be pretty lol

omg right, but for now I am definitely 10 times more confident and pretty even w/o make-up. And if the ah beng sees me now,  i doubt he would recognise me.

well, sometimes I wonder why am I so afraid when I can be so brave at times. I wish I can take a side. it’s quite tiring.

i found this particular game very cute and new. You have to find the exact objects shown in the card u draw, or find several objects ( depending on the diff kinds of cards u draw and flip a dice) like for eg: something that has to do with fire, so u have to find like fire/wood/rockets related.

cool game.

we were the only ones playing there.Even the staff were playing UNO, can? It is easily twice the size as the one in Clark Quay.

Pictionary, for someone I barely met for long, we had chemistry in this. He drew well, I guessed well. Omg, but we kena cheated by the staff, we ask for recommendations for snacks , he described this fish strips fried in oil.so we assumed it was fish finger. But this was it. -.-

omg erxin right? those minimart dried cuttlefish, just tt they fried it. when we could have got onion rings/fries/chicken wings/sotong balls?!

ok this is random, but i love this dress from osf. Needless to say, I tried it on and another piece from robotninjas, but aargh fuck too big for me. So i got this, oos from site.

If the above paragraph is not understood, it’s because I have been crazily blog-shopping, and these are some of my fav. sites. wee!

And i love my hair, I cut it twice in the month of August already. I love my sideburns if they grow a 1 cm longer. double weeee!

well, triple weee would be I am jobless. I went for Cotton On and Rubi Shoes trg, but decided not to stay on because there were better job offers, and I was quite indigant over the different pay matter.

like someone same position, Less exp than u but higher pay? And if I really had to make comparisons, I performed better. And when I told the cutie indian guy i was leaving, he wanted to increase the pay but too late already.

I walked past citylink( the shop I was supposed to be stationed at) and it’s quite small. but selling shoes and accessories only. so i kinda regret it but whatever.

but of course I went for interviews and waiting for calls. I dunno am I expecting too much or what?

anyway just a rant out, but the staff there are genuinuely nice and friendly.

spot Naomi Ugly lol.