so much in my mind, to unload here?
I wish it can be as light-hearted as those books I love to read.
Nothing mind-provoking, you don’t even have to think alot, you need not decipher any profound sentences, straight to the point and a good laugh.
that’s a ideal life in comparison to a light read. However, easily forgotten.
(12:05:25 SGT) Debra and Big Breakfast: 4 days ago, she keep goin under my bed to play with plastic bags, den actually is NOT! she eating chicken wings uder my bed
(12:05:34 SGT) Debra and Big Breakfast: she hoard it for 4 days!
(12:05:36 SGT) Debra and Big Breakfast: omg right
And I didn’t even dare to look at the chicken wings in the bag! I mean like 4 DAYS! eeeee, surely decompose.
Can’t wait for this year to end, or maybe can’t wait my brain to evolve into another stage. The stage I would like to think of ” The Thinking Stage” because I have been thinking alot of things but not good things that I carry out.
i screwed up quite recently. to screw something so I can screw the another without turning back. But to no avail, in fact it backfired on me so badly that the something that got screwed became a pleasant surprise. ( pardon my screws.)
that something kept coming back to me, always better than the last time. And this on-going incident will remind me that life is not complicated and not hard to comprehend,it is just us who make life motherfuckin’ weird.
And after years of rebelling, years of repeatedly saying aargh fuck the vicious cycle, fuck the routine. I welcome it, i want a routine. I want the boring word of ‘regular’.
I don’t want to be unconventional in these ways.
omg, im mighty broke now. The only good thing that came out is that I have about 7 new articles of clothing. And this time i would visit sgfleamarket as a seller not a buyer =/
haha, distasteful.
okay, I visited a ( what to you call a place u massage?) massage parlour? But I never did it, because I am scared when people touch and attempted to massage my back and my foot.
I would rather eat my pisai than to ever get that kind of thing done.
And kenneth was like relax only, but when he was in another place doing his back massage, there was this man moaning away. really different threshold of pain.
okay, im currently reading these 2 books.
which zw bought for me after we broke up. But it’s kinda deep ancient Japanese history involved inside. So im reading carefully for the first time.
And if im not mistaken, it’s adapted into a movie. But I doubt it follows the book.
it’s like really nice, im almost done with it.
it’s okay if i take an extract of the exercise inside bah.
-Write about a place that was important to you growing up, but don’t put people in it. Just describe it as though you were painting the picture with words.
-Two people are having a conversation. It can be any two people you want, but this is the first line of dialogue: ‘Kiss me.”
there are more topics obviously. I would love to try them when I have the mood to do so. and of course anyone can do them too just credit it to Susan Breen- Fiction Class.
because plagiarism sucks.
it’s 4.26am. Good morning to u guys and Goodnight to me!
Im not going to do a review of the show. Just want to say im lucky to catch several good movies consecutively.
and this movie reminds me of one thing. I think it is quite a common dream for alot of people to go around the world to experience a different culture, a different environment. even for just a while.
And after quite a silly thought, because I ate alone in work and shopped alone while waiting for a friend this year, I thought hey I don’t mind doing it alone. No one to hinder me from planning my itineraries, stop me from buying things. But I forgot I am afraid of loneliness, it eats me up from time to time.
I guess that is why I met up 8 online friends over 6 years. do u know that it is really very easy for me to make friends, even with complete strangers? But, unfortunately yes that but again, I don’t really keep them.
And im feeling quite bitter over what I didn’t do over time.
I guess everyone has their moments of
- not contacting friends because they are paiseh to?
-don’t know what to say or start?
-afraid of rejection?
-think oh they so busy?
-or just admit it, sometimes we just can’t be bothered to..
- and for my case, sometimes it’s quite silly, it’s because I don’t want to let my friends think they are ‘being used’
Like let’s say I want dinner but someone else back out last minute, so I had to call another person. I don’t like it when people call me to ‘make up the numbers’.
after i wrote out this chunk, i really think i think too much lol.
But back to my main topic, I really want to keep this idea and feeling. I want to start a scapebook, u know like in UP? To constantly remind and motivate myself to make money for this escapade.
anyway, I am very lucky for the 8 online meetups, i was not raped or what. But the very first one was like insulting, because it was a hideous beng and I was pretty hideous as well, when I had waist long hair and lovely specs lol. And i remember peishan accompanied me.
and the hideous beng saw me and we were all chatting and he rang up his friend saying I was ugly in some indirect but obviously directing to me. And after some verbal humilation, i remembered peishan telling me to put on makeup and next time show him, i can be pretty lol
omg right, but for now I am definitely 10 times more confident and pretty even w/o make-up. And if the ah beng sees me now, i doubt he would recognise me.
well, sometimes I wonder why am I so afraid when I can be so brave at times. I wish I can take a side. it’s quite tiring.
i found this particular game very cute and new. You have to find the exact objects shown in the card u draw, or find several objects ( depending on the diff kinds of cards u draw and flip a dice) like for eg: something that has to do with fire, so u have to find like fire/wood/rockets related.
cool game.
we were the only ones playing there.Even the staff were playing UNO, can? It is easily twice the size as the one in Clark Quay.
Pictionary, for someone I barely met for long, we had chemistry in this. He drew well, I guessed well. Omg, but we kena cheated by the staff, we ask for recommendations for snacks , he described this fish strips fried in oil.so we assumed it was fish finger. But this was it. -.-
omg erxin right? those minimart dried cuttlefish, just tt they fried it. when we could have got onion rings/fries/chicken wings/sotong balls?!
ok this is random, but i love this dress from osf. Needless to say, I tried it on and another piece from robotninjas, but aargh fuck too big for me. So i got this, oos from site.
If the above paragraph is not understood, it’s because I have been crazily blog-shopping, and these are some of my fav. sites. wee!
And i love my hair, I cut it twice in the month of August already. I love my sideburns if they grow a 1 cm longer. double weeee!
well, triple weee would be I am jobless. I went for Cotton On and Rubi Shoes trg, but decided not to stay on because there were better job offers, and I was quite indigant over the different pay matter.
like someone same position, Less exp than u but higher pay? And if I really had to make comparisons, I performed better. And when I told the cutie indian guy i was leaving, he wanted to increase the pay but too late already.
I walked past citylink( the shop I was supposed to be stationed at) and it’s quite small. but selling shoes and accessories only. so i kinda regret it but whatever.
but of course I went for interviews and waiting for calls. I dunno am I expecting too much or what?
anyway just a rant out, but the staff there are genuinuely nice and friendly.
spot Naomi Ugly lol.
watched District 9 today.
I had my period later in the night so no wonder I feel like crying while watching the movie. I think I said about 7 times poor thing to the male lead. For someone who don’t read science fiction, I really enjoyed the show.
I love the storyline to pieces. I love the wtf interaction between humans and ‘prawns’. I love thesorethumbloser with that accent forced to go through the somewhat agnostic irony of the job and ended up looking uncannily like Gerald Butler from 300. It is though-provoking and makes u ponder over the somewhat cheebye-nessof the human race.
my review is ‘emotional’, but there’s explosions and weapons and gore. so guys pls watch it as well.
aiyah, just go watch lah.
Im sorry that I have no pictures. But pls visionalise with ur dirty or gluttony minds, i had lovely authetic Thai food at Yishun ( and it’’s not ur tom yum soup, the Thais have so much more to offer).
I had hong Kong cafe’s papaya soup/ I had accumulated 11 packs ofchoco almond pocky sticks and the addiction is not wearing off yet/ I had Bliss Cafe, whereby if Mandy were there, she would jump into the pond as they replayed the Nobody song 3 times in less than an hour.
I had cupnoodles/homecooked food of curry and all my favourite vegs/ durain pancakes/longans/alot of naomi bites and scratches on my foot.
i seriously dun really like her alot now.
my life is quite boring now, revolve ard food/weird cat and a somewhat blossoming but somewhat can say gdbye anytime ‘friend’ship that has already gone too far beyond control.
I have no words to describe the complicacity of the situation. Just need to know Im confused, I don’t really use my brains and I’ll be working next week to do further damage to myself.
Actually not really damage, come to think of it, I do enjoy myself but it’s short lived. we know it.
okay get some money money get a routinal life for now. Everyone take care muacks!
this year is filled with vices.
if all this were channelled into positive things, then maybe I would be Obama.
anyway, Naomi shld just go to MENSA for cats. She actually ”knocked” on my door, I opened it thinkin it was my mum. Then there was nobody till a meow~
she wanted me to play fetch with her. but she is still findin chances to attack me. really scary, i have quite a phobia if she gets too suggestive around my legs.i will nv forget how much blood just spewed out.
but wee, im eatin really really well now.
i only play with fire when I feel bored.And im enjoying this while it lasts. It is something unexpected but preplanned. I think im really impulsive but arrgh just shut up, Angelic side of debra.
Breakfast+Sex= A Good Mood.
Especially when your not the one cooking.
sometimes people judge and stereotype u by what they see and the contact upon knowing u, but i think it isn’t very accurate. Maybe I have been fickle-minded lately, my views has changed.
or maybe i am the one doin’ it therefore I am less harsh on myself.
There is this huge painless blue black where Naomi attacked me. My mum is scaring the shit out of me when she said it was poisoned. I reckoned it’s just the dead blood clots.
I am in love with my new hair. Yes, I cut it again but this time I went back to Pointers. take that, ST aunties who disallowed me to cut short hair!!
I feel so much confident now. My dream pixie cut if it is more shorter. I wish my hair can stop growing.
I ate well these days, but sleepwise is like fuck the lift construction. Even those spiral ear plugs zw gave to me only manage to muffle a small part of the noises.
Im not with zw anymore. At times, I wonder why am I so stupid to give up someone who can fuss over me and put me at priority. But 2 stupid people can’t be together. Just one idea of family is enough to repel me away.
At the moment, it might be sweet but I think in the future I’ll probably chuck our baby into the cupboard and hum mindlessly to the theme of Desperate Housewives.
I wish I was simple minded enough so maybe we could be tgt. But look at me, only a few months, I did 3 cb things to potentially ruin my life. And looking back at a few days back, I do not want a repeat.
I think im really heartless at the moment and don’t deserve anyone to love. =(
im counting down.
Im anticipating really good and bad.
mmmmmmmmmmmmm.
